Lozenge of Love

i am gone / everybody's raging / and these fruits / they still taste of poison // i won't be around when you really need me // i can't sleep / why can't someone hold me / i need warmth / my restless body cracks and moans // i won't have the strength when you really need me

The song was titled after a line from Philip Larkin's poem 'Sad Steps' (He's one of Jonny's favourite poets):

Philip Larkin - Sad Steps

Groping back to bed after a piss
I part thick curtains, and am startled by
The rapid clouds, the moon's cleanliness.

Four o'clock: wedge-shadowed gardens lie
Under a cavernous, a wind-picked sky.
There's something laughable about this,

The was the moon dashes through clouds that blow
Loosely as cannon-smoke to stand apart
(Stone-coloured lights sharpening the roofs below)

High and preposterous and separate -
Lozenge of love! Medallion of art!
O wolves of memory! Immensements! No,

One shiver slightly, looking up there.
The hardness and the brightness and the plain
Far-reaching singleness of that wide stare

Is a reminder of the strength and pain
Of being young; that it can't come again,
But is for other undiminished somewhere.

Thom and Jonny premiered the song during an acoustic set at the FNAC Auditorium in Nancy, France on june 15th 1993, featuring a completely different early set of lyrics:

The song is included on this august 1994 work-in-progress tape compilation. The handwriting is Thom's. While Side A of the cassette contains some rough mixes and lists working titles, Side B apparently has the finished tracks for the various My iron Lung singles and EPs: